BismillahiRahmaaniRaheem
ShukarAlhamdulillah
ab kya karoon mei. maddad chahiyay
knock some sense into me, Allah Taa'la, please please please.
pretty please.
desperately need to get back on track with my life.
just don't understand how to keep myself focused.
continuously losing the will to move forward.
don't know how to stay on track
don't know if my field is okay and pokay and just feels like this parhai is going to stretch on to infinity.
really, seriously want and need a pardner at this point.
kuch samajh nai aati
bus idhar udhar awara he phirti rahti hoon, in search of a home, in search of a place of refuge.
never feels like i'm truly at home.
i'm so tired right now, Allah Taa'la
I know You're fully aware of my condition and my troubles and my worries and my concerns and my confusions
so I ask of You and I beg You to make this easier for me
whatever it is that I'm going through
You know me better than I will ever know myself
Alhamdulillah
SubhanAllahiWabiHamdihi
I just don't want to be alone anymore.
I don't want to feel alone.
grant me a loving, caring spouse puhlis,
or am I not mature enough to have one?
Allah Jee, shukriya. and khelps meh pls i begs Yous pls ;-;
SayyidinaRaheemunSalalahuAlayhayWasalam
I won't give up.
Best part of all the weekendsness. just the quality time spending I got to have. Sijil and T-rex made it all funs, i loved its so muches and won't ever forget and being photographed and recorded sara waqt made meh feel great and abbreciated and like a celebrity. and all the coolness mayn. like. yeah.
10:48:32 AMMysticArya: wells i must be offs cyaz laters 
10:26:52 AMlove is mai droog 
11:15:03 PMI love you, MysticArya.
11:15:49 PMi don't love you, though
11:16:03 PMI don't need you to.
11:15:03 PMI love you, MysticArya.
Acha tou. Everyday is like a pyara day to do so many thingas and i just need to get back into that flow of getting daily responsibilities done. Most important project at the moment: that manhattan wala map. Have to start plotting and planning for it immediately. InshAllah
kaam shaam need to be done at the right time. Parhai needs to be in order. every concept needs to be crystal clear. Have to focus on the present.
Just gets kinda weird feeling like I'm a part of two realms at the same time. Haan tou, I just need to synchronize these two thingamajiggers and feel like its just one realm and parallel realms ke feeling na aye
i mean, likes ya know i dont want to feel like I have to hide my spiritual sochain too much
and I hope Babajan is safe and khair kahiriyat say trip guzar jaye un ka,
khair naal ao khair naal jao
and Alhamdulillah october be such a pyara month and yay for my saalgira ka month and yay for my life not feeling so bad at the moment
and Alhamdulillah seriously
and funny how this was supposed to be a rage post and yet it's like a gratitude post or something
and Alhamdulillah
12:03:36 AM* aDorrinabletouches 'MysticArya' with his wand of fab.
02:09:46 AM* MysticAryaThe Diary of Arya
04:06:26 PMamongststars: 
Game face on now. Got nothing to lose. Never did actually.
this feels great.
A newer sense of uh awareness I suppose.
TOLD YOU EVERYTHING LOUD AND CLEAR but nobody's listening
loved talking to komli today
would totes want her in my family
she literally is practically family shamily
comin at you
comin at you
from every side
alright, its go time people, we need to get this shit up and running we've waited long enough.
it's our time to shine guys
THIS
IS
SPARTA beeches
09:56:35 PMGuys, shut the fuck up, MysticArya is sad right now.
