Pls.

BismillahiRahmaaniRaheem
 ShukarAlhamdulillah 
ab kya karoon mei. maddad chahiyay
knock some sense into me, Allah Taa'la, please please please. 
pretty please. 
desperately need to get back on track with my life. 
just don't understand how to keep myself focused. 
continuously losing the will to move forward. 
don't know how to stay on track 
don't know if my field is okay and pokay and just feels like this parhai is going to stretch on to infinity. 
really, seriously want and need a pardner at this point. 
kuch samajh nai aati
bus idhar udhar awara he phirti rahti hoon, in search of a home, in search of a place of refuge. 
never feels like i'm truly at home.
i'm so tired right now, Allah Taa'la
I know You're fully aware of my condition and my troubles and my worries and my concerns and my confusions 
so I ask of You and I beg You to make this easier for me 
whatever it is that I'm going through 
You know me better than I will ever know myself
Alhamdulillah 
SubhanAllahiWabiHamdihi
I just don't want to be alone anymore. 
I don't want to feel alone. 
grant me a loving, caring spouse puhlis, 
or am I not mature enough to have one? 

Allah Jee, shukriya. and khelps meh pls i begs Yous pls ;-;

SayyidinaRaheemunSalalahuAlayhayWasalam

I won't give up.

Best part of all the weekendsness. just the quality time spending I got to have. Sijil and T-rex made it all funs, i loved its so muches and won't ever forget and being photographed and recorded sara waqt made meh feel great and abbreciated and like a celebrity. and all the coolness mayn. like. yeah.

10:48:32 AMMysticArya: wells i must be offs cyaz laters 

10:26:52 AMlove is mai droog 


11:15:03 PMI love you, MysticArya.
11:15:49 PMi don't love you, though
11:16:03 PMI don't need you to.



11:15:03 PMI love you, MysticArya.

Bus Thoughts Pouring Cats and Dogs

Acha tou. Everyday is like a pyara day to do so many thingas and i just need to get back into that flow of getting daily responsibilities done. Most important project at the moment: that manhattan wala map. Have to start plotting and planning for it immediately. InshAllah 





kaam shaam need to be done at the right time. Parhai needs to be in order. every concept needs to be crystal clear. Have to focus on the present. 
Just gets kinda weird feeling like I'm a part of two realms at the same time. Haan tou, I just need to synchronize these two thingamajiggers and feel like its just one realm and parallel realms ke feeling na aye 

i mean, likes ya know i dont want to feel like I have to hide my spiritual sochain too much 

and I hope Babajan is safe and khair kahiriyat say trip guzar jaye un ka, 
khair naal ao khair naal jao 
and Alhamdulillah october be such a pyara month and yay for my saalgira ka month and yay for my life not feeling so bad at the moment 
and Alhamdulillah seriously 
and funny how this was  supposed to be a rage post and yet it's like a gratitude post or something 
and Alhamdulillah 
 

12:03:36 AM* aDorrinabletouches 'MysticArya' with his wand of fab.

02:09:46 AM* MysticAryaThe Diary of Arya

04:06:26 PMamongststars:  

Game face on now. Got nothing to lose. Never did actually. 
this feels great. 
A newer sense of uh awareness I suppose. 
TOLD YOU EVERYTHING LOUD AND CLEAR but nobody's listening 

loved talking to komli today 
would totes want her in my family
she literally is practically family shamily 
comin at you 
comin at you 
from every side 
alright, its go time people, we need to get this shit up and running we've waited long enough. 
it's our time to shine guys 
THIS 
IS 
SPARTA beeches
 

09:56:35 PMGuys, shut the fuck up, MysticArya is sad right now.

There is nothing Holy about Hate!

Rage is such a useless emotion. Rage is :

1. Poison
2. Fire
3. An Anvil on my head
4. An onion bringing me to tears
5. Ugly
6. A recipe for Disaster
7. A heart-killer
8. Friendship Breaker

I think you can see what I'm trying to get at here. Rage is the number one thing you DO NOT WANT IN YOUR LIFE. A rage-free life is a joyful Life.
Anger NEVER pays off. Ever. Even if its anger against an injustice.
So I think this page shouldn't even exist in the first place.
Because reading previous posts makes me angry about stuff from the past all over again! :P

When will I grow up?

What annoys me?
*Literally CRAVING likes on facebook
*my addiction to fb notifications
*the fact that I'm always searching for admiration, appreciation, compliments

I wish I could  just stop
find a better alternative

I want to work only because it makes me happy to benefit others!
I DO NOT want to write just to listen to people praising me
I want to be able to do people some good!
I want to be able to touch peoples hearts

I don't want to perform deeds without any heart or sincerity in them

its such a waste, such a WASTE if my intention isn't pure

I need to grow up
Allah Taa'la,
Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem
Please PLEASE help me to grow up and stop being childish and immature.

ThankYou.

Something Real.

I'm writing this post in a mood of passive anger.
It's mostly frustration rather than anger actually.
I'm frustrated because I feel empty. I wish I didn't. But theres just something missing.
I Know what my problem is. Basically, my heart wants to love. It wants to fulfill the purpose of its creation: to give love to others. The problem: I don't know where or who to channel all that love to?

I know God loves me. I know that loving Him should make me feel complete. Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough.

Allah Taa'la, guide my heart, please. Purify it.
I'm tired of living life with numbness in my heart. I need to feel something real.

DRIVEN TO MADNESS

UUGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SWEAR TO GOD IF I FAIL THAT DRIVERS TEST I AM GOING TO

well, I havent decided what I'll do yet, BUT IT'LL BE BAD LEMME TELL YOU THAT!!!!!!!!!

>_< ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

THAT MOTHER FUDGING TEST IS GOIN DOWN!!!!!!
YEAH!!! YOU HEARD ME!!!!!!!!!!
YOU GOIN DOWWNNN BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BY THE TIME I'M DONE WITH YOU, YOU'LL WISH YOU NEVER EVEN EXISTED!!!!!!!!!!!!

>_______<

GOD I HATE TESTS.

oh yyyyyyyyy??

hey
Im just annoyed
I WANT MY NET BACK !! :'( plus...i also want to meet up with my friends..have get togethers...go to parties...live my life...and apparently I can't do any of the things that I jsut enlisted above because : I have to STUDYYY :X grrr

I just pisses me off how liberal my dad is about me meeting up with my friends whereas my mom is the complete opposite...and since my dad's in america most of the time...I always have to ask my MOM for permission to go out..and sadly...unfortunately...she almost always says no ..and has a problem with me hanging out with my friends...*sigh...At times like these...i just REALLLY miss my dad alot ....

I guess ANGRY isn't exactly the right word to use right now for what Im feeling..FRUSTRATED and IRRITATED would be more apt for my situation...I love my friends...and I know that these are the only few years that I have to really enjoy with them and make memories with them that are going to stay with me my entire life.

All I can do is HOPE that my mom goes easy on the RESTRICTIONS for once and softens her DISCPLINARY practices...sheesh...its like a military school at home LITERALLY

Alright then, see ya, bubye

AROOB ...!!