Calming down...

daily rage???
*smirk*! :P lol
and now im thinking how THAT ever happened :p
HEHEHE
i love confusing people
its just that i have been very thoughtful AND hopeful these days....so...basically...all that i am TRYING TO say is that...my anger is almost gone
and yet....
there are STILL some times that i simply CANNOT contain myself
times like....when i talk to my reallllllyyyyy cloooooose friends....or family members....sometimes...these people exploit my OWN weaknesses because they KNOW ME A LITTLE TOO MUCH and i HATE IT when they do that
because its so much deep down inside
and not only do i feel outraged but i also feel sad ! and depressed at the same time !
laikin...phir bhi! i ALWAYSS FORGIVE THEM because....i KNOW that they will always continue to love me and respect me for who i am,....sometimes....we just HAVE to make sacrifices...and this is ONE of them....i'll try to keep u posted now....=)
ALLAH HAFIZ ! =D

hakuna matata

mmm
its surprising
i hardly ever have to use this blog =P
its great when life's good =D

Examination Tensions

School's been over for over a month now.
My EXAMS for the previous session are long gone.
The result itself has been announced.

& yet there isnt a single day that im not forced into thinking about my studies...
the more i try to ignore them, the more my text books come back to haunt me in my dreams...
every time i pass by my book shelves i can hear their hushed voices...the graspy voices...summoning me to open them..trying desperately to get my attention..but i turn away and refuse to look back...and i make a run for it...

This is so weird...even though i totally oppose my parents for stubbornly getting me to study, seems like, deep down inside, my instincts are telling the same thing
maybe i've just beocme so fed up with their constant lecturing that a weird VENGEFUL AND RESENTFUL VOICE has given birth within me :P

u might find this all very amusing, but this is serious...

Parents: aka PESTS ! *no offense*

How many times in a day do parents go around pestering you to do something u should, don’t want or have TO DO !?
how many times do u have to put up with NEVER-ENDING lectures which go in one ear and then out the other ?!
personally....id say everday ! :P
*sigh** ok, now dont go on about how important our parents are in our lives...and that they only wish for us to have the best and all that crap ...cause i KNOW THAT !
and there is no doubt that i totally love/respect/honour and obey them !!
HONESTLY!! im not a problem child !
but when it comes to things like MY studies and MY "net surfing" :P or things that really seem to bother my parents....they just go over board with their "TEACHINGS"....i mean, sometimes things just get a little outta hand for me to tolerate, and when that LAST NERVE is on the edge of exploding....THATS when i decide to turn to the solitude and comfort of MY blog...n let it all out :P:P
this is where I seek refuge from all the daily DISASTERS THAT OCCUR in my life…
disaster is maybe too strong of a word-lets keep it to, “dilemmas”
yup, my DILEMMAS

The one im facing nowadays is with regard to MY STUDIES
its a very VULNERABLE topic when it comes to parents....no mother or father could possibly live without lecturing their child about it atleast once in his/her life....apparently i've been a target for this discussion a great too many times....ever since we got here (to america; for the holidays) my mom hasnt went onnnee dayyyyy without bugging me to OPEN MY BOOKS AND UTILIZE MY TIME ! arghhhh
This IRRITATES ME because:
1) Holidays arent meant to be spent studying !
2)She thinks my result sucked (the 82% seems to have no value)
3)She threatened to take away my internet priveleges cause i was spending too much time ORKUTTING instead of STUDYING ! grrrrrrr
4)This constant pestering has made me go through prelonged periods of inferiority complex :(

and now, i have to get a TIME TABLE ready for tomorrow for my mom to see !! she said it was for her own TASALLEE :P to keep a check on what ive been doing or plan to do in the future INSHALLAH

the problem might be TYPICAL...but its one heck of a roller coaster ride !
I HOPE I GET THROUGH THIS SMOOTHLY ! :D:D
Aroob*....loobiiiiii :):)